I changed the site name again. Made it a little tongue and cheek. There will be no dick pics here if that’s what you are looking for. Go search tumblrs for that, that’s what they are there for.
I’m calling this blog “A Grow-er and a Show-er” because I am always striving to be better in some way (career, physique, languages). That, and I cannot hide my emotions at all. I’ve mentioned it on the blog in the past (the 100 Things About Me post from a lifetime ago still rings true today, even the update from last year).
It really hit me when I was on a date this past week with a guy and I kept noticing that he keeps his facial expressions very neutral about almost everything. When we kissed, I would get super smiley and happy when we would pull away. He made a comment, “Why do you always smile after that?” and I replied, “Because I’m happy to be here.” It bugs me a little that I can’t get a read on him. Not that I need to, but because I don’t know him well enough to know how he feels about anything. Other guys I have dated have always felt warm, but this guy is cold. He is not that into me, clearly. We are staying friends at least.
Right now my life is in a bit of a transition. I bought a condo in March this year in Toronto and I am renting it out currently. My parents are retiring, so I am staying with them to pay off the last of my debt and to watch the house while they travel. I currently work everyday doing something I love. I am accompanying ballet classes and teaching music to kids in a 4/3 day split. It’s a good balance for now and I know I can’t do it forever. I’m also not making as much money as last school year but I am hustling and it feels good.
I’m still not much to look at physically, and I’m not about to start documenting it again. I honestly don’t know why I did in the first place. I guess it was to hold myself accountable. I’m learning now with my weight lifting regimen that accountability comes from within. I’ve been single since the beginning of summer, though my ex and I are on friendly terms. He’s got stuff he has to work out, and so do I. I gotta find my next direction to grow in, though ballet is one that I love.
I’m always keeping my eyes open for opportunities. So bring it.