Monthly Archives: June 2008

The Shorts Dilemma

How do the gays do it? How do we buy shorts that look good? I’m having such a hard time trying to find a pair of shorts that doesn’t have yards of excess fabric around the legs and crotch.  I’m not saying that I want tight shorts, but I would like it if I could not be able to shove 3 legs inside a 28 waist pair of shorts.  I’m hoping that it will be mild enough out tomorrow that I can get away with wearing jeans.  Jeff is going to come shopping with me tomorrow so I can find a pair of shorts.  Never hurts to have another pair of gay eyes helping you shop.

Tomorrow and Sunday I will be driving around Toronto (all pedestrians will tremble before me) and doing a promo for Rogers.  I am a little scared of driving in downtown TO.  I’m more scared of getting lost.  I don’t have the GPS on me because my father and my brother took it on their fishing trip to some random lake up north.  I’m Google Mapping everything in sight to make sure I don’t screw up tomorrow.

I visited a few palliative care centres today and I have a gig at one Independent Lifestyle Condo thing.  I’ll be performing on the piano (no microphones = no singing) on July 11th at 3.  If they like me, they’ll hire me and I’ll perform weekly and get some money.  But it’s no full time job.  The search continues…

The Katima-End, The New Beginning

Katimavik officially ended for me on June 4th, 2008 at 1 PM when I walked in the door of my house.  I had the same feeling when I left as I had when I arrived.  It didn’t hit me that I was finished Katimavik until I was walking in Toronto about to get on a subway.  I walked on and expected a rush of 10 people to follow me, but it didn’t happen.  That’s when I knew I wasn’t in Katimavik anymore.  

I can eat meat again (went vegetarian and later vegan while in the group because there was so many vegetarians in our group), I can get up at a reasonable time and not worry about managing a house (as much as I used to).  I can sleep in a Queen sized bed and on real honest-to-goodness mattresses without hearing a certain person snore! I don’t need to worry about getting sick because there’s another person in the house that is sick.  I can make more money than just $3 a day.  My life is not jam-packed with stuff to do.  I actually have time to sit and think about things.  I do miss having 10 people around me all the time though.

My mother has said to me that I should turn this blog into a book (and write more information in it… I’m looking at you, Stonewall trimester! There’s no posts in May!) and I think it’s a lovely idea.  It will definitely take time, but we’ll see how far it goes.  I have a lot of stuff going on right now in my real life.  The sooner I write it, the more fresh in my mind it will be.  

So far, my time has been spent job hunting.  I applied at a few clothing stores and I’m applying to a palliative care centre tomorrow.  I currently work as a promotional model in Toronto, which is really exciting.  I had a Polar Ice Vodka promo (that was last year, but that’s the uniform I wore except it’s now a tie instead of a bow tie) last Saturday at a classy resto-bar and it went very well.   I had a successful interview at Le Chateau Men’s Wear (I’m going to lose all of my paychecks if I work there) and they’ve sent me to a Ladies’ Department but I have yet to hear back from them.  I made some connections at Club Monaco and I’ve yet to hear back from them either.  

It’s funny, a bunch of people that used to be at Banana Republic (where I worked last year) all migrated to Coach (the store with amazing bags and $800 trench coats.  When one person left, I guess a few others followed suit.  I’ve pulled some strings there and a friend of mine is opening a new store in Square One in late July and he said that he would keep me in mind (thank you thank you thank you).

I was planning on performing at a restaurant, but that has turned out to be a bust.  The woman I keep trying to call never picks up. I’m thinking I’m gonna go down there and just start playing the piano and be all, “This is what you’re missing!” and then take my jar full of tips and leave.  Of course, I can’t get tips because I think they think I’m under the impression that I would do it for free (I love volunteering, but I’ve done that enough and I need money).  I know that Sassafraz has a piano… maybe they’ll take me in?

Speaking of music, I’m applying for busking license in August. It’s a competition/audition of sorts to be able to busk in Toronto.  I’m writing music and getting my songs together for that.  It makes sense that it would be an audition situation considering that Toronto is so large and touristy.  They need good musical representation.

Katimavik wanted me for an interview for being a Project Leader and I turned them down. School is my priority, and PLing is a full time job.  Maybe later on in life I’ll do it, but I am Katima-full right now.  FSWEP keeps bugging me, but to do jobs for them I would have to move (and not get my living covered by them), and I’d rather stay in Toronto right now and enjoy life.

Onto the new stuff.  I am now the owner of a MacBook, an iPod Touch (I’ve given my Dad the iPod Nano I got for Christmas as a Father’s Day present) and a Canon printer.  The last two items came with the MacBook (mail-in rebates… now I play the waiting game to get my money back) and I’ve never been happier (I’ve already got a printer, I’m selling the Canon one on eBay and the iPod Touch is AMAZING).  If you remember from a previous post, I said I would get a MacBook Pro.  I decided on the MacBook because I don’t need that much power for what I plan on doing.  I just need enough to do creative things (record songs, maybe play some games, word process) and I’ve found that in this laptop.  When I get another job in the mix, I plan on buying some recording equipment.

You have probably noticed the new look on my blog.  Since Katimavik is over, I decided (to quote Anna Olsen) to “switch it up” and make some cookie ice-cream sandwiches out of these cookies we just made change my layout to show a new chapter in my life.  So I’ve come up with the title “Not Killing Time, Just making it entertaining”.  When you read a blog, it’s not only a glimpse into someone else’s life, it’s also a time filler.  You have a few minutes, you check your blog.  You send a quick wall post on Facebook.  You finish off a reply you’ve been thinking about for days and e-mail it.  The web is a time killer, but hopefully it will be satisfying and not just mindless wandering.  I’m writing not just for me, I’ve got an audience and I hope that whoever reads this blog will enjoy what they read (or not.  Can’t have it all).

The photo that you see in the header is me, twice.  Here is how I got photo that you see on my blog.  The picture was taken by Eliane one day when we were working at Propulsion in Montreal.  I liked that photo so much I doctored it a little and made it arty (as you can see in the photo).  That mirror is in the elevator of Propulsion and it translates into “Here is the person who is responsible for your security”.  Pretty effective.

In addition to a new layout, I added a new widget: the meebo Message Board! Leave me a message and I’ll leave you one too.  You don’t need to sign up, just type in what you want to say and say it and I’ll reply on the board.

For my next post, I shall write a long overdue -Ing Thing and continue with “Random Things About Me”.  Stay tuned tomorrow! Speaking of tuning, a piano tuner is coming into the house in the morning to fix my baby.  It hasn’t been poked and prodded since the summer of 2005.  I’m looking forward to watching the process and having a perfectly tuned piano again.  Hmmm… piano tuning could be a job for me too…


What I think about when I drink white tea

9:30 PM
Sitting here waiting for an half hour to pass is killer. Kind of need to go to the washroom too.  It’s funny, walking into the gay version of stores and shops.  You can feel all the eyes check you out.  Does everyone feel that way? Like you can feel the stares of lust or curiousity when you go places? Even as I type this, there’s an Asian guy checking me out.  Trying to act like he is not.

I’m sitting below a leaf-haired, sexualized Bob Marley painting.

I met a gay biker/soccer player a few minutes ago.  He’s going to bike from Toronto to Montreal for AIDS.  Pretty amazing.  “Where does the soccer part come in?” you ask.  Well, he also is apart of the gay soccer team.  They will be playing on a rooftop during Pride. His name is Simon.  It’s amazing what humans can do (that sounded a little Bai Ling, earthlings).

I don’t think this white tea will ever cool down, which is good, because I have to kill time. The barrista was nice enough to add in ice and some shots of (I think) lemon or vanilla.  I sucked it back pretty quickly after.

12:30 AM
The Polar Ice Vodka promo went really well, except when I mis-calculated a step and spilled a few samples.  Whoops! I worked with Leah and Kyle.  Kyle’s a writer (he has completed two novels and currently writing a liberetto for an opera called The Lionheart) as well as an actor and Leah is a crazy cat lady (and just awesome). They’re really cool people.  I was invited to go to the Harbourfront after work, but I’m visiting friends tomorrow in Cambridge.  Too bad, but I’m sure I’ll see them again.  Things to remember for next time:
1. Meet your contacts outside the establishment.
2. Wax instead of shave.
3. You can whatever you want to the destination as long as it’s classy (which I am always)

I really like promotional modelling a lot.  It’s easy, social, and so much fun! I’m very fourtunate that Reef Moxie picked me up.  I also like that I have time to write my blog entries while taking the subway home on my iPod Touch.

That’s all for now!

Arrival at High Noon

“My blog is back.”

Such a lie. It’s been more than a month since I’ve last written in this fossil I call a blog. Sorry about that. Amazing things have happened within the last month that have prevented me from getting to a computer to spend some quality hand to keyboard love-making.

However, I’m here now, and that’s what truly matters, no? In an effort to kind of get everyone up to speed, here’s what has happened: I was in billeting right before that last entry until the 9th of May. My billet parents were fantastic. I will definitely be coming back to visit them at some point. They had a piano that they loved to hear (neither parents could play), and my billet grandma invited me to perform at the Lion’s Manor in Selkirk (a retirement apartment building). I did, and it was fantastic. I even received $20 out of the deal and a free Chinese food dinner. All in all, a fine payment for someone who only makes $3/day.

The following weekend our group had planned to have our 72 hours off (it was May Long Weekend, so it wasn’t just the usual 48 hours off we get from each other). I was to spend my time off with my brother who lives in Thunder Bay, but he had just got a job as a security guard at an airport, so he wasn’t going to come down to Winnipeg. I decided to switch my plans and do something I’d never done before: stay at a hostel and be alone. Not entirely alone, mind you. Daniel and I hung out for 2 of those days, and he showed me around Winnipeg and actually made me appreciate what the Capital of Manitoba has to offer. We had sushi, went shopping in antique stores, furniture stores, and walked around the Forks. It was great weather all weekend.

We even got to see some live music. I talked with each artist after to find out what their drive is, why they are doing what they are doing, do they have safety nets. I received different answers from each one. Some artists are performing without safety nets and just seeing how far their music will take them (most of them have CDs recorded). I was so inspired by them, but I know I have my path set out for me: Get a degree in Gerontology and then become a recording artist. That way, if something goes horribly wrong in the music industry, I can aide the elderly.

On the May-Long Monday, it rained. I sat in a Second Cup off of Main St. and wrote lyrics (I had never tried until that day). I wrote 4 songs, and I have melodies floating in my head for each song I’ve wrote. I’m so proud of what I have done and when I showed it to my group and other people, they were really impressed too. I’m looking forward to see what more ideas pop out of my brain. I plan on performing those songs at Open Mics and Coffee Houses very soon when I get home to Toronto.

The following weekend was the 30th Anniversary of Katimavik. 6 groups gathered in Winnipeg in Spence Neighbourhood to build a community garden for the children and for the adults. There was an Open Mic where I performed along with a fellow participant and my Project Leader. There are videos that I will post of the other amazing events that happened that day. I also said a speech on the behalf of all the Katimavik participants thanking Katimavik, the Project Co-ordinators, the Project Leaders, the community, and my peers. I was winging it, but it went quite well. I’m good at thanking people.

This past weekend was spent celebrating Stonewall’s 100th Anniversary. I dressed up as a clown, raised money for a 50/50 draw and entertained children. After lunch I sold candy to raise money for the new playground that was being constructed for the elementary school. I was cutting deals with the candy, selling boxes for 10 dollars (I was like a human Costco). I sold 3 cases of candy and estimated about $125 was made. Hooray for me.

We also had a debriefing camp at Prairie’s Edge Eco Village, where we spent 2 days being with one another, saying our goodbyes, being emotional, digging up weeds, tilling soil, playing with dogs and cats, celebrating a baby’s 1st birthday. It was such a lovely place to have a debriefing camp. The best part about it was that I finally saw my first shooting star (we don’t get them much in the South).  It was such an amazing view: no lights, wide open spaces, no cities for miles.  Just a giant blanket of stars in the sky.  I’m so glad I did this program.

I received my $1000 cheque 2 hours ago along with a certificate and a goodbye note from my Project Leader. Now all that’s left is to wait for a bus to show up at our house at 3:30 AM and take us to the airport. From there, I will wait until 9, when a plane will show up and take all of the Ontario participants to Toronto. The plane will touch down at noon and I will be done Katimavik.

I have many plans for the summer, which I will talk about in another entry (more than likely it will be later on today). I leave you with two slide shows: the Earth Day Cleanup and Gingerbread. If you hover your mouse over the picture, an “i” will appear. Click on it to get a little information about that slide. See you in another timezone.